One 30 day challenge completed, and now on to the next one. The one I feared the most:

30 days without nicotine as a start of my new addiction free life.

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I have a dream and purpose in my life now for the first time ever. I want to become the best possible role model and father I can be. I have been an addict to nicotine since I was twelve years old. Have been able to quit a number of times, but always fallen back to the addiction sooner or later. But then I had no real purpose in life. Then I didn’t have I didn’t have a dream. Then I didn’t have a plan. Then I wasn’t prepared and then I wasn’t strong enough. But now I have it all, and now I will succeed! Please support me, and I promise you that I will do my very best to inspire you to take action. To make that decision that will forever alter you life to the better. From now until eternity, Yours truly /Peter

Log:

• 2014-04-06

              Ok, challenge done and do I feel proud. Join me on my blog and contact me so I can mentor you for free.                           Love you all, take care: www.cernvall.com

• 2014-03-30

  Today was a great sunday with family thai lunch, extremely appreciated, and some football with my daughter playing. Now its administration and planning the coming week. Only 6 days left and the challenge goes like a charm. Take care all…

• 2014-03-28
• Today it’s friday and I really wish you all a great weekend. Try something new, do something challenging, do something just for you…

• 2014-03-27Today I celebrate! Three weeks has past and no nicotine has been used. I have now started my new better life and can finally put this behind me and start to focus on something new. How did I do it then you might ask. Well, as I said before it was really the firm decision that made all the difference. To be able to put the bad behind me and only look forward. As suggested in my favourite book “the slight edge”, try to make the scales work in your favour. Every little thing you do matters…
• 2014-03-26Today, or rather tomorrow not based on dates, is a big day. Because at 2 PM 3 weeks has passed and that is a kind of magical point to defeat. You usually say 3hours, 3days, 3weeks, and 3month. Those are turning points you must conquer. Night then…
• 2014-03-24oops, that got out a bit messy. Will make it clearer tomorrow, but until then think about thinking about your results and dreams…
• 2014-03-24Today is still tomorrow, I promise. As usual on sunday evening I sit here in front of my computer and its getting far too late. Had a great weekend and I hope you had one as well. I promised you something useful. Ok, lets see. This advice comes in line with the book “the slight edge” where everything you do is determing whether your future is going up or down. Just choose to do all the little things good and your curve will slowly move upwards. Anyway, the tip: For anything you do, think about it before you do it. What do I want to get out of it, what is the benefit of doing it, what is the cost of not doing it and if i fail what could happen and what can I learn from it.
• 2014-03-22Maybe I should write you something useful too, not just nonsense. Ooops, time for bed. Must think about the social part. Tomorrow I will write something of use for you, ok. Promise, night now and sweet dreams.
• 2014-03-22Have a superb weekend all brave and gorgeous out there… I am about to find my next challenge, and it’s all about personal development. Cheers,
• 2014-03-21Strange… I want to send feedback to all of you superheroes doing amazing challenges, but cant. I can though send feedback to my self? Is that logic? Anyway, its friday everything is great and I salute you all. Have the the best weekend ever.
• 2014-03-20Today, now at 2 pm I celebrate 2 weeks of success. Two weeks of freedom from the nicotine slavery. Two wonderful weeks as a start of the rest of my nicotine free life. I feel proud
• 2014-03-18Today 12 days has passed and the extreme sugar need is now slowly passing by. Every day is a little victory and the moments of urge for something with nicotine gets more and more rare. I even forget about my previous habit for longer periods every day now.
• 2014-03-17Oh, yeah! Its monday and I feel great. Hmm, not that great when I think about it becauce I havent slept properly and I havent been excercising as much as intended. But does that matter if I still feel great, no. Becauce past is past and now is now. What you make and feel right now is more important than what happened in the past, even though your past will haunt you if you deserve it :-). So, the key and the solution to all greatness, to all successes and all achievements is that you live by every moment and choose your actions without thinking about your past. Is your future going to getter better or worse? You decide by every decision you take, in every second of your present life. And thats why these challenges are som important, to practice your decisionmaking to achieve whatever goal you have decided upon…
• 2014-03-14Today I had my birthday and thank god for Facebook. Feel like a prince with 40+ people celebrating me from all over the world… Take care now and have a wonderful weekend
• 2014-03-13I think the solution was proper planning and preparation. If you write it all down and make it official, the decision gets firm and the challenge easier. I now understand that you can change anything regarding your habits and behavior. Its just about wanting, desire and decision. Good luck
• 2014-03-13Today its my 7th day and it is precisely one week in just a couple of hours. I tell you, this is no match if the decision is made. I even forget to write here about it, since the challenge is already beaten. I understand that there is always a risk of falling back. But there is no challenge, no difficulties any more.
• 2014-03-10Today I feel great, and it’s Monday. Amazing, to be feeling this awesome on a Monday. And the challenge is proceeding well. With respect but with the decision firm as gold
• 2014-03-0972 Hours! The magic 72 hours has passed and it now feels like if I should not even write her anymore. Just to let the past go and head for an enormous adventure in the rest of my addiction free life…
• 2014-03-08Eurovision Song Contest in Sweden is over. My Saturday is also heading towards its ending and my third day is passing by. A total of 56 hours without nicotine is completed…
• 2014-03-08Ok, past midnight again but today it’s ok since it’s friday. Have a great weekend you all…and goodnight!
• 2014-03-07Finally, 24 hours has passed and I feel so proud. All evening is going to be family time, so there I am safe. Hmm, tomorrow needs to be prepared. Need sleep and exercise. Ok, bye for now
• 2014-03-0722 hours passed and closing up on my first 24 hours to celebratesoon. I had the same experience again with day 2 being harder than day one. Really weird when you notice yourself trying to persuade yourself into just a little bit of nicotine. Talk about split personalities
• 2014-03-07Oops, here I Adam? LOL. Autocorrections are great sometimes, but not if it’s ahead of you. I can feel that I stayed up a bit late yesterday, but I still feel good, this is going to be a great day. And it’s Friday as well.
• 2014-03-07Here I Adam again past midnight when I should be sleeping hours ago. Anyway, the challenge is working great and it is past 11 hours. Last time I had trouble the second day so I should be aware. But there will no trouble tomorrow, only sunshine. Will go humming and celebrating on candy all day lol.
• 2014-03-06First hour completed and all nicotine thrown in the waste. Even went out on the balcony with my smoking colleague just to prove myself, and to get some refreshing air…

• 2014-03-06 How will I accomplish this challenge? By thinking of my why, which is my children as described below. By looking back on how i did it last time I succeeded for more than 30 days. And also by avoiding the hard times by planning ahead. Always have something to eat or drink nearby, like chewing gum, fruit, water etc. But the most important thing to stay in focus is to feel happy and to feel good. Whenever something bad happens, turn it around and analyze it instead. Could I have done anything to avoid this, can I learn something and can I turn this into something good? And if my mood goes down, do something crazy or start listening to a good song. If that don’t help, start singing or whistling. Oh, and off course. I must celebrate the successes constantly, 1 hour/1 day/3 days etc. Wish me luck…

• 2014-03-06 Summary: Decision is made, outcome is clear and goals are set. Lets make this day the first of the rest of my nicotine free life. What a relief if will get to be free of the guilt, the trouble and the expenses. And what a good role model I will become who has the experience of the troubles nicotine creates and the success of breaking free. I will be able to tell my kids to avoid the killing habit without feeling ashamed of my own actions (not fully getting the message through).

• 2014-03-06 Today I do my third and definite attempt on this challenge. Now I have built up my strength again after being sick and being low.

• 2014-03-05 Morning again and feeling exhausted but rather happy again, thank you lord. What a dreadful feeling walking around feeling sad. Back to goals and outcomes again. First of all I need to take that groundbreaking decision again. A decision to break my habit whatever happens and a decision to change my life forever.

• 2014-03-05 Ah, finally feeling better. I think it helped to go on the Sweeney Todd musical with my wife, because it was great. And I also have someone who wants to invest under me in my revenue sharing/MLM business, for whom I actually found a great deal where he will get 25% on bought shares for free. I also got a positive response on my other MLM deal regarding silver coins. Things are moving again, and I love it. Oh, it’s a half hour past midnight again, better go get some sleep then. Good night and take care

• 2014-03-04 Today I still feel like crap. It must be some kind of spring depression combined with a bad stomach. I really don’t know how to get out of this mood. Atleast I convinced myself to take the morning walk instead of taking the lazy subway route straight to work. Then next step is to focus on the important stuff instead of trying to do everything. And sleep, I must not forget the importance of rest and sleep. Had a +7 hour sleep tonight which was good. Slowly step by step is the method forward now…

• 2014-03-03 Good night. Must get some sleep and hope for a better day tomorrow. I had the worst day of the year today feeling like S H I T. Even my stomach hurts and feels terrible.

• 2014-03-03 Today was a day of disappointment. I am disappointing with myself for not coping with this challenge. I am disappointing with the rest of the union board for not appreciating me and neglecting me, so I decided to quit. I am disappointing with our system supplier for not being able to deliver things that work. And last but not least I am disappointing in all people who are afraid of MLM, instead of seeing its potential. Like if it was all a pyramids scheme like in 1980. So from now on I will focus more on my self and things that I can “control”.

• 2014-03-02 Now I have set the challenge to restart on Monday. Tomorrow I will write out my goals and keys to success again. It’s now past 1 AM so              good night. Must gain strength….

• 2014-03-02 Today I went to the Avicii concert with my son, it was great.The reason for me not updating my log is probably pretty logic. I failed big time. It was to easy the first day and got impossible the second day instead… But I will have to restart on Monday with new strength. Success is brought on planning, failure on blaming. And this time I blame my condition after being sick with to little exercise and too little sleep together with a tough week depending on insurance company and my wife blaming me for a car crash I could not have done anything to avoid. Costing med 6000 kronor and a lot of trouble. Also planning was obviously not good enough. Must write it down here before next attempt.

• 2014-02-2521 hours has passed and the urge is now more pressing, but it is another urge than the expected. It is the urge for something sweet, and it is not possible to make it satisfied. Feed it, and it will only grow bigger and “badder”.

• 2014-02-256 PM already and 17 hours are done. The feeling so far is: wasn’t it worse, why did I wait so long to start? That despite the trial below plus a raging wife, and that is even more difficult. I glues the reason must be proper planning and a firm decision.

• 2014-02-25 Today I had the best forenoon ever, going in to Stockholm with my daughter for a school interview. Ended up having a wonderful time shopping, having tea and pastries and just talked about everything. Then when going to work at noon a mail popped in from the insurance company telling me that I was to blame for an accident with my car 3 weeks ago. Switched lanes and got hit from behind by a truck who did’t see me. This was from standing still and using my flashers waiting by an open spot that got bigger when traffic started to move again. Still my fault and 6000 kronor to pay… Not precisely what I needed today, my first day. But I’ll just have to see it as a trial

• 2014-02-25 Challenge starts! Time to throw out the snuff I currently use and put the rest I have in the garbage. It’s 1AM so it’s a perfect time to start. Will give me 6 hours of head start while sleeping. Night now and sleep tight…

• 2014-02-25 Challenge start: 30 days without nicotine as a start of my new addiction free life.